But then today came and everything happened. Honestly, I’m still lucky because it could have been way worse than it was. It’s crazy how just yesterday, I was so happy that I have gotten so far without any problems becides the biggest one being CPP then today, that all changed.
I have known the bleeding could happen at anytime, day or night. I had just gotten out of bed, sat on the couch, called our daughters school and the L&D where my OB is. Then went to the restroom and it happened.
I had gotten out of bed 10 minutes prior to this bleed, walked 10 steps or so from our room, sat on the couch then walked another few steps to the bathroom. It really just goes to show how unpredictable having a previa can be.
Since I haven’t had any bleeding since early on, I was terrified when I realized there was blood. I’m so close to the sceduled day she’s supposed to come and I bleed out of no where.
I can’t thank everyone I came into contact with enough at the hospital, my doula, my mom and husband. Texting my bestfriend from my husbands phone when we were at the hospital (my cell phone has been inactive since June 2017, I have no plans to turn it on again. Life is great without a cell phone attached to my hip constantly) helped me so much as well.
I hate that I will be on bedrest until I deliver becuase I have so much I want to be doing right now. We got to the hospital it was around 9:15AM. We didn’t get out till 4:30PM. We went to get food right away because I was starving at that point. Then we had to go to my husbands work and get his check. Then the last stop was walmart to get our meds, the last minute thing I needed for myself (yay to having everything we need for our baby girl and I) and snacks for the girls when they stay with our parents while my husband and I are at the hospital.
We got home at 6:20ish. I warmed up the girls some soup because that was all our oldest wanted to eat. My husband was getting ready to go to work. He gave her the liquid meds they gave her, she took a single bite of her soup and threw up. My husband then decided it would probably be a bad idea to go to work. I looked over the papers from the pills, throwing up or nausea is a side effect of the meds she has. I’m gladI thought to look at that paper.
The girls took a bubble bath and went to bed. She got sick a few times after that but is sleeping now and has not been up at all. Hopefully that won’t happen again.
I’ve been off on the couch since the girls took their baths. It hasn’t even been a full day yet and I’m already tired of it. I thought me having a “limited activity” restriction was bad. Nooo. This whole “bed rest” is the worst. I’m thankful that this happened now rather than a week or a month ago but it’s still stressful.
The hospital our baby will be born at, has restrictions out, they are voluntary but make complete sense to me. We were going to be doing everything they asked people to do. The only thing was they do not want visitors under 18, but before we found out the girls were sick, they were going to be coming up with my mom and dad after baby girl was born and the golden hour was over and whenever my dad could get off work.
I’m pretty upset that our older girls won’t get to meet their baby sister till we get home but it will be worth it in the long run. I told our oldest we would send my mom lots of pictures the whole time we are there. That made her happy.
I have been feeling better than I was but since I got that second steroid shot, baby girls movement has decreased again and changed so much, it’s way different than it was before I got that first sterioid shot yesterday. My ob told me that it can happen in the first 24 hours after getting the sterioid shots. I’m glad she told me that. I’m still worried about her moving less but now not so much like it was this morning before I knew it was a thing that can happen.
I need to get back to having positive thoughts like I had before all this happened. I have to keep reminding myself that the theater may be full of people who I will not know at all, but my mfm will be preforming the surgery so that makes it better. All the people in that room are there for the safety of baby and I. If any issues do pop up unexpectedly, my team will be there and they have mine and baby girls back.
(This baby will be 36 weeks and 4 days so I’m scared she may need a bit of help from the nicu but my ob said she’s looking and doing amazing right now and we wont know about her going to the nicu or not until she is actually born)
I have no experience with the nicu but I do know that babies who are in the nicu are in the best place for them at that point in time until things are better. Nicu babies are little warriors. If our girl has to go to the NICU, she will be a fighter.
Hopefully tomorrow is a better day. I’ll be a living, breathing, eating, couch potato but I will have to get over it.