There’s no place like home

We have been home now with our baby girl and with our older girls for 3 days. Our little family of 5 is finally all together.

The last day at the hospital was short and sweet. That morning the nurse came to check our baby girls jaundice level because it was at its peek, she needed that to be retested then we could go home. Her level was perfect so we were all set to go as long as my mfm approved of me going.

My mfm was the first to come in and say goodbye, I thanked her for everything. She helped me through all this and granted surgery wasn’t bad at all, I know that I can always call her with any issues about it. She then put in orders so I could be discharged.

The peds/nicu doctor came in and told us she’s perfect and we were able to go today. They left to go put in orders for baby girl to be discharged.

We had breakfast, took more pictures of baby girl then the nurse came to go over some things with us. She then got ahold of transport, who took me down in a wheelchair and my husband went to get the van.

My husband and I talked about everything on the way home. It was finally over. All the worrying and fears of the what if’s, were all a memory now.

Baby girl and I are now on the survivors side of CPP and it’s such a big thing for me. We made it. We had the one thing come up but that’s not a big issue to me. Baby and I are perfect. That’s what matters.

I’m still pretty sore. Really taking it easy now. I’m just so happy we are all together now as a family😣❤

More into the delivery of our girl.

Today is day 2 after having the c-section done. I must say for 2 days after having a major surgery and my first time having surgery, I think I’m doing great. Getting out of bed sucks but other than that, I feel so good! I do have pain sometimes where my mfm made the first cut on my right side and getting up out of bed, laughing and laying back hurts me.
I never ever thought I would get through surgery without anxiety. I thought I was going to be crying and going through anxiety town the whole time.
It honestly was intimidating when the nurse told me when she was preparing me for surgery that I had to have 2 IVS instead of 1 because they rather be safe than sorry. With a previa you can bleed a little more and maybe need a transfusion and things can come up during surgery but my mfm told me December 14th she didn’t think anything was going to pop up.
Having the bigger people come to my room and talk to me before surgery was a very calming thing to meet them before hand.

The first people I met were the 3 nurses that were in the OR doing different things. They got me prepped and ready for surgery.

A lady came in so I could sign for my blood bags. That was when things got real for me.

The second person I met was my anesthesiologist. Right from the start she made me feel comfortable and confident with her. She explained everything she was going to be doing during surgery.

Then I met the OB resident who assisted my mfm during the whole thing. She was really nice.

Then my amazing mfm came in. She really put my mind at ease. She’s so laid back and chill that I just feel so relaxed because of her and how she is.

By this time, a nurse told me that it was time to go down to the OR. I got into the wheel chair and off we went. We got to these double doors, they told me it was time to say bye to my doula and husband till he comes back. I was crying at this point because I wished he could be there. We hugged and went through the doors.

I walked into the room, crying a little still. They said oh here’s miss america, crying is normal, do you have your wave down yet? I told her no, I’m not much of a waver.

So the anesthesiologist then started feeling around my spine for where the numbing shot would go, followed by the spinal.
She then put the stuff to sanitize my back on. That took 3 minutes to dry. After that 3 minutes, she asked if I was ready for the numbing part (I forgot what exactly that was called) I told her as ready as I would ever be.
She did the injection, I didn’t even feel it. Then she got ready to do the spinal. She did that and I felt nothing. I was then laid back on the table, going numb.
A few minutes passed. I could feel very funky like feeling. The anesthesiologist then said okay she did the tests and you passed because you didn’t react at all.
Before I knew it, my hubby was right next to me. Hes been so supportive through all 3 of the deliverys of our girls. He is my calm. I could never ask for a better man than him.

Not long after he got in there, my specialist said we were about to have a baby. I was so ready. They put the barrier down between where they had my top and bottom half was separated. My head was held up by the anesthesiologist.

I was crying. It was so amazing seeing our baby be born and crying. I was just so relieved it was almost over. Just to get through the rest of the surgery and everything would be okay.

Our girl was perfect. No issues at all. They cleaned her up, put a diaper on and we did skin to skin. That was one of my birth wishes. It was amazing.

After she was born, it seamed to go by slower. The anesthesiologist gave me something for the nausea that may or may not hit me once I was being closed. She said there was a certian layer that when they are closing, some women get really nauseous. It made me very dizzy. Like a scary dizzy. I just wanted that to end.

That soon ended. My mfm had finished closing me up, she told me her job was done but the assisting OB resident, was being very particular with closing the outside.

She told me surgery went well but She said they usually cut the bottom of the utrus because the top part is the only part that contracts but my placenta was on the bottom so they would have cut it, so they had to open my utrus from the top. If I were to get pregnant again, I would be at risk if I have any contractions that my scar would rip open and the placenta would rupture. She told me it wouldn’t be a good idea to get pregnant again. I could have lots of risks if I did.

I couldn’t be happier with the way it all worked out. Our baby girl is here and oh so perfect. She is the missing part of our little family.

I can’t wait to see how our older girls react to meeting their sister for the first time, I’ll be a hot crying mess but it is going to be bitter sweet❤

I am a C-section mom and I don’t want to hear..

• “DID YOU HAVE A SCHEDULED C-SECTION BECAUSE YOU DIDN’T WANT TO HAVE A VAGINAL birth?

No I did not. I had a condition that’s called Complete Placenta Previa.
(The placenta covers the entire cervical opening) you cannot give birth to a baby whose exit is blocked. It just doesn’t work that way. If you want more info, look up complete placenta previa. It’s nothing to joke about or slip under the rug and forget about. It can cause a lot of problems, serious problems at that. I was just lucky that I only had one bleed throughout the time I had CPP.

 

 

 

• “SO YOU HAD TO HAVE A C-SECTION?” 

Yes. Yes I did. I had no choice at all but to have one. A baby cannot pass through the cervix and vaginal canal if the placenta is covering or even partially covering the cervix. So yes. I had to have a c-section. 

• “AT LEAST YOU DIDN’T HAVE TO GO THROUGH LABOR”

 No. No. I didn’t but I did however, have major surgery. I have been through labor with my first two girls and their deliveries. I know exactly how labor goes and how it feels. My first two deliveries were vaginal, all natural and beautiful. My c-section, was also beautiful and I now have been able to experience both ways of giving birth. I’m thankful for C-sections because my baby girl and I had a safe delivery, thanks to my amazing MFM and all the others (it was a full house) who were in the OR  during my delivery and her birth. It was just as special as a vaginal birth.

• “I’M SORRY YOU HAD TO HAVE A C-SECTION”

NO. You do not get to be sorry for my birth. My birth is my birth and I do not feel sorry for myself or ashamed of myself because I had a C-section. You had nothing to do with it. You had nothing to do with the fact that I was that 1 in 200 pregnant women in the third trimester of pregnancy who’s complete placenta previa did not move. Having CPP just happened. My  2 vaganal births, were just as beautiful as my c-section.

Please think before you speak when you are talking to someone who has recently given birth. You may say something you shouldn’t that you yourself wouldn’t think is a big deal, but to someone else, it can be. Being insensitive isn’t cool. Words do hurt. Some people are too afraid to stand up for themselfs. I however will never be afraid to stand up for myself, even if I’m standing by myself, all alone. I’m just not that person that I used to be anymore. 

Over the moon in love.

This day has been amazing. My husband fell asleep so I’m going to let him sleep as long as he can. Our baby girl had to go down to the nursery because she was spitting up fluid and they don’t want me to fall asleep and not be able to get to her. While she’s down there, she will get her hearing test done.

I will be up walking again to the bathroom at 4AM. I can’t wait to get out of this bed. I’m so over it 😂 these leg cuffs are really annoying to me. I hate having these IVs in both arms but hopefully soon enough they can be taken out.

Today went so much better than I thought it was going to. It all happened so fast. The nurses and doctors that we have come in contact with here have all been so good to us. I just couldn’t be happier.

When my specialist told me we were about to have a baby and the drape got put down so I could see her, I cried happy tears because that was one of the really important things to me on my birth wish. I never thought in a million years if someone had told me I was going to have a c-section and watch baby come out of me, I would tell that person their crazy because it used to be my biggest fear. Now, knowing what I know, it’s just incredible.

I’m really still in awe right now. My journey with a previa is now over and I can get on to recovering then on to no restrictions. It feels amazing.

I do miss her moving around and what not but she’s now here with us and is so perfect. I can’t think of life without her in it.

Our older girls are having a blast at my mom and dads. I miss them so much but their dad and I have video chatted with them a few times so we could see them and they could see their sister. When our oldest saw her baby sister, the look on her face was just priceless.

I really hope our older girls are better when we come home with our little lady. I just can’t wait to have our little family back together.

Tomorrow we will probably do the carseat test, I want to get up and walk more. I just can’t wait to have a real meal.